Trusting the Universe
Written on January 25, 2011 at 6:16 pm, by jennifer
Sometimes things aren’t as they seem – sometimes it’s hard to know what the right thing is to do. The hard stuff, the crap life hands you sometimes doesn’t make any sense at the time – but the truth is at some point if you take the time and you let yourself trust in the process – answers to questions are revealed – peace and understanding will come.
I’m dealing with a lot of crap right now – I use the word crap because it sounds good. C-R-A-P…. yes it’s an appropriate word. I have so much stuff to cope with that I’m asking the question WHY – why am I working – sitting at my desk attempting to get the work done – that will or won’t — I’m sooooo tired – so emotionally drained —sssoooo frustrated confused and overwhelmed. Yet here I am!! WTF
My work life is a shambles and my outlook on the future uncertain. To keep going in the capacity that I’m working is insanity. It’s time for me to make some wholesale changes – to figure out what I want to do and then how do I set about doing it. I am praying for help and guidance… I’m going to trust and put these problems and issues out into the universe and believe that it will be revealed. In the meantime I’m going to do an awesome job!! because that is how I work, because that is who I am, because I believe hard work and commitment will be rewarded (maybe not financially) but I can hold my head up and say I did my best and even if it isn’t enough – if it doesn’t change anything – I can know in my heart that it wasn’t because I didn’t do my best -
So I’m packing up and tomorrow morning I’m coming to work early to get a fresh start on things and put a fresh face on it. Here’s hoping 